On the Couch

I'm sitting on the couch listening to Olivia fuss over the monitor. My heart is beating fast and my palms are getting sweaty. Her sleep habits have been SO EFFED UP since we got back. She won't nap in her crib. And she cries at night. It's utterly heartbreaking because she goes "umma, umma, UMM-MAHHHH!" I feel like I'm disappointing her or something. But I have to be consistent. She MUST get used to it again. I can't go another 4 months of a baby sleeping on me.

It's strange because she slept pretty well while we were away. But we did do a lot of co-sleeping so she probably just gets scared when she stirs and she notices no one is there...

Am I happy to be back? Sort of? I missed the comforts of home but I don't miss being in Virginia. I like the familiarity but you can always get used to a new environment. You just can't beat the California weather. It really just puts you in a good mood. You see the gorgeous mountains on one side and the ocean on the other. Pretty people everywhere. And the produce is just to die for - fresh strawberries and avocados from the farms. Oranges and banana trees in the yard. The only reason I don't want to live there? The earthquakes, mudslides, and other natural disasters. Scary. Either or, I think I'm ready for a change. I don't think it will happen any time soon, but I hope it does in our future.

Ok she stopped crying. 5 minutes. Not too horrible.

Did you guys see the Blake Lively nude pictures? Her reps denied it was her but she should just own it because she looks fantastic. I'm sure it's just PR for her new movie. XXX, Gossip Girl!

I have a laundry list of things I need to do around the house but I've not been very productive. I'm so reluctant to leave the house because it's so hot outside. The air is just so thick. Not comfortable for myself or for Oli.

I'm going to watch some tv and stuff my face with some ice cream. I can't blog when I hear her crying like this. Feel bad for me!